"Some went down to the sea in ships, doing business on the great waters; they saw the deeds of the Lord, His wondrous works in the deep. For he commanded and raised the stormy wind, which lifted up the waves of the sea. They mounted up to heaven; they went down to the depths; their courage melted away in their evil plight;
they reeled and staggered like drunken men and were at their wits' end. Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and He delivered them from their distress. He made the storm be still, and the waves of the sea were hushed. Then they were glad that the waters were quiet, and he brought them to their desired haven." Psalm 107:23-30

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

In Loving Memory: Amadeus Aurelia Haven



1 0 little flock, fear not the foe
Who madly seeks your overthrow;
Dread not his rage and pow'r.
And though your courage sometimes faints,
His seeming triumph o'er God's saints
Lasts but a little hour.

2 Be of good cheer; your cause belongs
To Him who can avenge your wrongs;
Leave it to Him, our Lord.
Though hidden yet from mortal eyes,
His Gideon shall for you arise,
Uphold you and His Word.

3 As true as God's own Word is true,
Not earth nor hell's satanic crew
Against us shall prevail.
Their might? A joke, a mere facade!
God is with us and we with god--
Our vict'ry cannot fail.

4 Amen, Lord Jesus, grant our prayer;
Great Captain, now Thine arm make bare,
Fight for us once again!
So shall Thy saints and martyrs raise
A mighty chorus to Thy praise,
Forevermore. Amen.

LSB #666 "O Little Flock, Fear Not the Foe"

A year ago today I went in for a prenatal ultrasound after a couple weeks of awaiting what my doctor assured me would end in miscarriage only to have a lab come back saying that we had most likely been given a miracle and our baby would probably survive. Then, during the ultrasound it appeared I was in fact carrying twins. But, a closer look through internal ultrasound revealed that second "baby" was actually the hematoma that was attached to our deceased baby's placenta. I went from assuming baby was fine to thinking I had twins to hearing there were no twins, a large hematoma, and a deceased baby in a period of about 10 minutes. That night we induced because the hematoma was fooling my body into thinking I was still pregnant and 11 weeks along by taking blood and growing as a baby would. The miscarriage, as a result, was excruciating and just awful. 

I spent this morning weeding the garden where two of our babies are buried and all six are remembered. I planted two more Easter lily bulbs that were from two Easter lilies that adorned the altar area this Easter. I did this last spring for Anastasia and it came back this year and looks like it might bloom in a few weeks on her due date and what would be her first birth day. I am hoping all three will come back next spring. As I weeded and dug and planted I was taken back to each burial and with my kids all busy I was able to have a good cry. It started to rain so as my own tears fell on the stones other drops fell all around me. After a good hard cry I sang the above hymn and "Lord of our Life and God of our Salvation" LSB #659. Something about church militant hymns in the fight of the last year has just brought me so much comfort. 
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  1. Corner121July 3, 2014 at 7:21 AM

    Hugs, friend. I spent yesterday morning finally cleaning up where we buried Ruth, the weeds had grown as tall as the cross her daddy made. Her due date is tomorrow. I was singing "I Know That My Redeemer Lives".

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  2. MelroseJuly 4, 2014 at 8:43 PM

    Thank you Megan. (()) I'm so sorry for your losses and my own but so thankful for our hope and promise through Christ!

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