Stop it

A friend and sister in Christ just this week said to me in an email, "remember what He's promised and what He hasn't.....He promised to save you and your babies from sin and death. That's it."

I couldn't help but think of THIS VIDEO as I pondered not only the discussion she and I had but also the entire post miscarriage experience so far.

I'll wait while you go watch it. 

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$-O (like my new sunglasses?)

done?

I was inundated so much with modern psychology personal self esteem, well being, etc etc nonsense as a kid in public school that it amazes me I'm functioning at all. Because when one's whole job every day is to fight for the top spot, fight for the most friends, and when one is lectured to get top grades and when parents applaud standing out and doing what they view as positive things to draw attention to yourself...and when it's all for the reason of being able to buy whatever you want and have a pampered "successful" life...how can you not end up an over indulged, hyper competitive, anorexic feminist woman who can't keep a relationship going because you're too busy obsessing over yourself and in therapy a million times a week because it's all about you and you feeling "good about yourself"? gag

But by the Grace of God.

Walking this road of losing a child in the womb far enough along to be able to hold the baby and go through an entire 12 weeks of being sick, well, it was very tempting to allow past experiences creep in. 

But the thing is, there's really only two things to say.

It's not "stop it" though that was kind of funny.

1. Repent.

2. Receive Absolution. 

God has not promised long life. He has not promised health. He has not promised happiness. Contrary to our country's perceived rights we Christians know we do NOT have the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. We only have Christ and Him crucified to redeem us. And that is enough.

I would love to wallow and cry and whine and beg for help. But the thing is, none of it will do any good. I've been to mainstream therapy a ton as a kid when my divorced parents were having issues and the only thing it does is drive you in on yourself and make you think the rest of the world is there to serve you and make you feel happy about yourself. (gag again)

Repent. 

Receive Holy Absolution.

Why? Because Confession and Absolution is the one place where the church takes you in its lap personally and compassionately and restores you. In the forgiveness of Christ you can walk on, one step, one breath at a time. No, life is not happy. No, it does not feel good. But yes, Jesus is catching every tear and one day, they will all be wiped away. 

Christ keep you.